Not for lack of ideas, memories, imagination dancing around in my head… but more-so due to all of the external situations playing out in my daily life. There have been some very serious things happening, that have been requiring a lot of my attention.
Please accept my apology for the neglect I have been giving you.
Tomorrow I will make it a point to post some more updated writing and information. Promised!
I guess today makes fbe ”official” launch of my nonsense website. Although I have been fiddling with it for a few months now- I finally swallowed my insecurites and decided to post a public link to my website on Facebook and start sharing the web address as much as I can. I am hoping that knowing even one person might be reading it out there, somewhere… will keep me motivated to stay active with it.
Anyhow, if anyone is reading this that follows me on Facebook- I know I had scheduled the launch of this site for yesterday but I hoped to devote more time into pulling some of the things here together. Yet with most things I do, there still wasn’t enough time. I’m not sure if it’s just me, or if all artists feel similarly about their creations. I am incredibly critical of my own work. It is never good enough, there is ALWAYS something missing, there will always be room for improvement, and there is always something specific that I pick out that is particularly wrong with it… I think to myself “maybe if I stare at it long enough it will come to me I can do that will make it better, make it complete. Then maybe I will relax and enjoy whatever it was that I made. Appreciate it for what it is. THEN, and only then, I will feel comfortable enough to make a living doing it. I wish I could explain WHY that is… so if someone can explain this unfixable insecurity I have regarding my art I would be so completely indebted to you.