I can not even begin to review all the things in my life that have changed within the last few years. Most definitely changed for the better. A few took a turn for the worst before they eventually morphed into something good. But honestly, I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am finally beginning to get acquainted with genuine happiness in my life. I have never truthfully thought that I deserved to be happy. I settled for many things in my life. And by settle, I mean accepting anything that presented itself as easily obtainable. I have this idea in my head that the universe, and God, presented me with certain things for a reason. But up until now I assumed all of these people and things were meant to be permanent fixtures in my life… but that isn’t the case and I am so glad I can see that now.
I have the chance to start a new chapter in my life and I am jumping at the opportunity. I have big dreams for this next period of my life… big dreams for nothing but happiness. And I couldn’t be more thrilled.
I’ve spent countless moments soaking in all the happiness I can empathize with on the faces of those I love and hold dear. For some reason that has been enough for me throughout nearly the last five years of my life.
It has been my pleasure to experience my younger sister finding her soulmate and building a beautiful family with two amazing little girls. And then there are my father and mother who have worked back-breakingly hard to raise my sister and I while providing all a family demands (and much, much, more) for most of their lives– these two are now partially retired where my mother works part-time remotely (from home or wherever) and my father goes into work a couple days a week… and that’s only when they’re in town! For around four months every year they travel the states in their luxurious RV spending pure quality time alone together, on the road experiencing God’s beauty- while they are still young enough to thoroughly enjoy it as they should! I can’t forget my animals though. Words simply cannot express how much job Pedro and Silas give me… just by existing, but mostly when I can see they’re happy.
Anyhow… my point is: it’s MY turn. I want to focus on my own happiness. I want to live my life to experience that warm feeling you get in your heart and chest when you reach the pure emotion of joy. I choose to live each day forward, working closer and harder toward that physical feeling of joy; as well as to show others how such a wonderful thing feels.
Pretty cheesy isn’t it?! haha